Kemie
I'm not sure why I'm doing this. I guess I just need to talk to you sometimes, but you're not here. I don't even have anything to say. Just wish I could hear your voice, your laugh. I cry a lot. Not in front of anyone. I know you don't want me to, but I can't help it. I miss you so much. I find it more difficult to get up and start the day, to laugh and joke around, to talk to mommy. Thanksgiving is next week. I don't want to go. I don't know what to do anymore. We're trying to find some cool stuff to put at your grave for Christmas time. I need a drunken santa statue! I want you to know that the kids talk about you almost everyday. I had a dream the other night. I don't know where we were but suddenly you got out of the car. I didn't believe it! I had to run over and hug you and talk to you but I couldn't hear your voice. I'm sorry I'm rambling on. I love you daddy.